sometimes I feel like I’m freezing this time and the dream won’t end. sometimes it seems that everything that is and will be (or was) my past and future somewhere far away.

I try to live my life but anxiety attacks me again and again. sometimes it’s hard to be in one place or do your favorite things
schizophrenia and anxiety a deadly combination that gives me no rest and I know that I will be addicted to medication for the rest of my life. sometimes my black and white world never seems to change.

you see, there are two sides to my illness, intelligence and illness. intelligence can be high but the disease takes its own. seeing my intelligence people don’t see my disease …. but about it next time.