shelter and fate

sometimes it seems to me that I will not escape all this nonsense so easily. today I realized I was wrong about some of the people around me.fate, to live here when everything is bored and wants change and new reality. shelter, I will […]

Got it

they will remind me, everywhere and always, what was and what will be… .. but for me with my family not on the way… .. I want to get back into the world of vagrants from which I was imprisoned in Veisiejai, I want […]

monsters around me

I recently went to Klaipeda and met my sister, I accidentally asked about my father’s health, and I found out that he had absolutely nothing ….and then dreams came back, dreams of me beating him, and I feel blood on my hands that really […]

life on the border

sometimes no one seems to need my life, not even myself. I live on a very fragile line, although everyone tells me it’s up to me and I’ll get over it but my world burns, I don’t know how to overcome everything, because other […]

now or never

I started analyzing my health deteriorations and realized that I was hurt by being with other, four or three people. you see, I was never part of a gang, and I lived a life of solitude and alone. realistically, I needed to find or […]


I don’t know where or when but everything crumbles in my little world. it’s hard to understand and forgive myself because I’m trying to deceive myself and escape from a reality I’ve been stuck in for some time. I feel cheated, I try to […]

to be or exist

be when everything that interested or entertained you bounced back into the existential wall where you have to decide – you or they … when you live with people who cause you problems, you are looking for answers sometimes through the blackness, sometimes through […]

will you resurrect me?

lately, I feel lonely and alone, though surrounded by people and sounds but I only feel emptiness. will you resurrect me when everything in me is a mad fire of flame and restless anticipation of the end? will you resurrect me when everything falls […]