my life (here and there)

my life will never be calm and normal.
I have a defect that is my curse and my blessing, that defect will not give me peace no matter how much I fight it.

sometimes it seems that my life is full of imaginary enemies that I can’t live without, but I want to ask, is it really?

some colleagues, due to their illness, imprison me where I feel bad and cannot communicate with other friends. and then I raise questions that annoy the government, because I want to live a safe and simple life, as I understand it.

another thing, I feel that everything – I was and am problem number 1, because I have sensitive vision.