I don’t know where or when but everything crumbles in my little world. it’s hard to understand and forgive myself because I’m trying to deceive myself and escape from a reality I’ve been stuck in for some time.

I feel cheated, I try to run away from myself and look forward to when it gets better, but it doesn’t and won’t get better. I learn from my mistakes but mistakes enough that no one will forgive me.

I run away from myself because I want pokkyčiai but I dive into the unknown that scares me. but maybe there I will find myself and myself.
strange music, quick thoughts, finally wanting peace and security