today at least partial sleeplessness awaits again ….
sometimes it seems that everything I touch becomes part of my story-experience.
today I realized that all this closing chunk had to happen to know how strong I was, how much fear and hatred I had for myself.

today I realized that I have enough of everything I need inside of myself, although sometimes it seemed that everything is not worth the effort ….. I know this is my experience, although I suspected that I would live bad enough but that I would not have imagined it so bad ….
everything I have will not end so easily, although a further locking plan will be decided next week. hope everything comes back to rhythm and rhyme again. but there is still a week left that can be any and any like