today I decided to put myself in the hands of another person. today my girlfriend and I decided to try to live together. I am afraid of my disorder that she may suffer because I never wanted her to see me in my worst moments
she’s my little doctor because when she’s next I feel happy calm and in need of something
I take risks – to be open and vulnerable, to be in my good and bad conditions …..
but not I chose and she chose me, I feel accountable for her … don’t get me wrong, I love my little kitten and the further I go the more I need her to be around.

being together will make me personally stretch, both physically and spiritually and emotionally. I will need to learn a lot of new things. but I don’t know if there will be enough strength and desire, although it’s worth a try ……