again I seem to be stuck in an alien reality.
I feel lost and lost my lives which are now only on the computer screen and in the old, cold faces of people
it hurts, I feel my body falling again, and I barely keep the promises I made to myself and others
I get tired of eating the same food, seeing the same people, seeing the same environment ….. I need something to set me free from this lethargy sleep.
but I finally decided to control myself and take care of my feelings and emotions because I think it all depends on me and the blacksmithing of my life. from today I will be the one who will help others and not look at myself.
maybe the day will finally come when I will be calm and able to keep those promises.