today my darkest fears and desires came true …. the mystical hammer mode was turned on again and I was the last one to get out to town.
my fear of being left without the freedom of movement came true to the fullest and only one question arises when it will all end.
my mind is full of all sorts of thoughts and anxiety, today almost all day is spent in bed. the painful realization that everything was almost over began to torment my body with pain.
need something to bypass the mystical hammer and not give up.
but I was left without my church, without the land museum, and other places dear to me and what would support me. I don’t know how hard this version of the hammer will be for me, but somehow something will have to be done with it and somehow survive