sometimes I feel lonely even though I am surrounded by friends and people …. and it seems like it will never stop, cold faces will continue to surround me. through my illness, I have rejected many people and left behind.

feeling strange, i want to communicate myself but everything bounces on my mind and emotions …. here in the care home i interact with a few friends but i lack communication on higher topics …

I miss friends from Vilnius studio, I miss concerts and tours of the night city, I miss long conversations until morning ….. but it will never come back.

here I feel frozen into the ice of routine, although I am provided with everything and some would envy me but I do not envy strange homes and strange lives. but about that next time.