I have two days left until my birthday, but I feel like I’m diving into blackness again …..
everything seems so far away and unreal when I can’t see my friends ’eyes in the eye
this whole story makes me worry and feel nothing and nothing like ….. everything I do, mistake after mistake and attempts to survive blackness plunges me further.
i know they take care of me and take responsibility, but i am also human and if all was well with me i would not be at home.
there are two days left before my holiday, I do not want to be sad but to enjoy is not anything ….