I’m still frustrated, I’m almost crawling trough this lockdown but I’m still alive and this is good news for me… this Wednesday is my little love’s birthday and I’m looking for it… and I don’t know what gift I should buy or maybe make […]
Month: May 2020
Dusk Tribe Podcasts – Room Session #4
still here, still alive
when the end draws near in the cities, we still locked down….. and again I’m still crazy and alone. I still alive and here, crawling or scrolling trough lockdown I still waiting to crash again, but now I don’t give up… I need to […]
when people try to listen
it’s nothing to brag about, but yesterday I feel like I’ve listened at last….. now, I feel better and stronger, then people help me overcome my darkness I respect people with understanding and silent voices, like Z. I respect her more and more because […]
[quote] NEEDTOBREATHE
All these pieces they fall inline Because I’m forever on your side Take my hand when you can’t see the light Cause I’m forever on your side I will carry You every time Because I’m forever on your side
some good news for the evening
now, I’m happy…. after a talk with the head of the medical department we make an agreement about medications. and after it, I don’t want to go to ward, but simply I waith a nurse shift and see how things go… the agreement is […]
banhammer, virus & my life pt.2
banhammer hitting hard, so my life became harder….. it’s not complaining is more about the freedom that I can’t use. I lost track of the time that we are banhammered but something will change in my country, but not in my house where I […]
life over rooftop
sometimes I wondering why people can’t understand my mental condition. why they bring me closer and closer to darkness. sometimes they put me on the test, like yesterday with a nurse of night shift…… yesterday I make a call to helpline, because I feel […]
burnout after birthday
yesterday was my birthday, and now I feel some kind of burnout. I was surrounded virtually and live with people that I care and whos is dear to me. now, I feel like burned cheese on a hot pan, all the highest and happiest […]
I’m 41 years old
I write this at midnight in my office…. now, I’m realized how time flies by. today is my birthday, and I don’t want to sleep at all….. yesterday I was feeling like this birthday was fake, now I feel like my years and my […]
[quote] Lao Tzu
“What the caterpillar calls the end, the rest of the world calls a butterfly.” Lao Tzu
morning over rooftop ( view from my office)
the most beautiful morning although I only slept for a few hours, the beauty of the morning redeems everything ….. although the neighbors are restless and through me do not sleep any morning music and strange view when it is not night but not […]
two days
I have two days left until my birthday, but I feel like I’m diving into blackness again ….. everything seems so far away and unreal when I can’t see my friends ’eyes in the eye this whole story makes me worry and feel nothing […]
# smallworlds
sometimes it seems like quarantine and isolation will never end …. and my madness is getting worse. everything seems simple and life moves in an old furrow, but sometimes finds itself on very crisp ice. error after mistake and your world seems to have […]
