banhammer hitting hard, so my life became harder….. it’s not complaining is more about the freedom that I can’t use. I lost track of the time that we are banhammered but something will change in my country, but not in my house where I […]
Author: nighttribe
life over rooftop
sometimes I wondering why people can’t understand my mental condition. why they bring me closer and closer to darkness. sometimes they put me on the test, like yesterday with a nurse of night shift…… yesterday I make a call to helpline, because I feel […]
burnout after birthday
yesterday was my birthday, and now I feel some kind of burnout. I was surrounded virtually and live with people that I care and whos is dear to me. now, I feel like burned cheese on a hot pan, all the highest and happiest […]
I’m 41 years old
I write this at midnight in my office…. now, I’m realized how time flies by. today is my birthday, and I don’t want to sleep at all….. yesterday I was feeling like this birthday was fake, now I feel like my years and my […]
[quote] Lao Tzu
“What the caterpillar calls the end, the rest of the world calls a butterfly.” Lao Tzu
morning over rooftop ( view from my office)
the most beautiful morning although I only slept for a few hours, the beauty of the morning redeems everything ….. although the neighbors are restless and through me do not sleep any morning music and strange view when it is not night but not […]
two days
I have two days left until my birthday, but I feel like I’m diving into blackness again ….. everything seems so far away and unreal when I can’t see my friends ’eyes in the eye this whole story makes me worry and feel nothing […]
# smallworlds
sometimes it seems like quarantine and isolation will never end …. and my madness is getting worse. everything seems simple and life moves in an old furrow, but sometimes finds itself on very crisp ice. error after mistake and your world seems to have […]
#lockdown playlist
Tim Deluxe “It Won’t Do Without You” Dual Core “All the Things” Jahneration x Berywam “Energy” (beatbox cover) Laffe the Fox “Hyper Trouble” for KING & COUNTRY “Toghether” (feat. Tori Kelly & Kirk Franklin) Jahneration “Energy” Jahneration “Lighters” Jerome “Light” Fatboy Slim “Brimful of […]
approaching
i invited a few friends, i feel like i can enjoy my birthday again. a virtual party will also take place, but it is not yet known who will be able to join and when ….. if my friends can’t come to me then […]
[quote] Andre Gide, Autumn Leaves
“It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not.” ― Andre Gide, Autumn Leaves
Birthday party plans
Next week (05.14) is my birthday and I decided to throw virtual party. I miss my friends so I decided that they can visit me. I try a ZOOM platform…, it’s fast cloud baced solution with some neet function…. www.zoom.us Just instal from the […]
[quote] C.S. Lewis, The Four Loves
“Friendship … is born at the moment when one man says to another “What! You too? I thought that no one but myself . . .” ― C.S. Lewis, The Four Loves
celebrating life
I celebrate life no matter what it is, sometimes I seem to lose more and more, but everything is in my hands. I celebrate life with friends who surround me and help me recover from blackness I am still looking for myself, real and […]
