i feel like I’m a wanderer in my mind and sometimes in life i have to test myself. though nothing is remembered, only the crumbs of the music and the faces of the people float out of the corners of the mind.thoughts and memories […]
Tag: life not asking
my world is different (remember)
sometimes it seems like I am living a normal healthy life, but sometimes I am reminded that this is not true.I am always reminded no matter how much power I have anyway my life is different. last week’s seizure and current tension still reminds […]
test
I don’t know where or when but everything crumbles in my little world. it’s hard to understand and forgive myself because I’m trying to deceive myself and escape from a reality I’ve been stuck in for some time. I feel cheated, I try to […]
mystical hammer vr2
today my darkest fears and desires came true …. the mystical hammer mode was turned on again and I was the last one to get out to town. my fear of being left without the freedom of movement came true to the fullest and […]
banhammer, virus & my life pt.2
banhammer hitting hard, so my life became harder….. it’s not complaining is more about the freedom that I can’t use. I lost track of the time that we are banhammered but something will change in my country, but not in my house where I […]
life over rooftop
sometimes I wondering why people can’t understand my mental condition. why they bring me closer and closer to darkness. sometimes they put me on the test, like yesterday with a nurse of night shift…… yesterday I make a call to helpline, because I feel […]
the desire for freedom
created to love others the music strangely sounds louder and louder freedom here and somewhere far away all surrounded by dark blacks I got stuck somewhere on the edge of the world life stopped and nothing was left just a silent wait for the […]
