yesterday I celebrated my birthday and it was one of those sad days but today I realized that I have friends here who are dear to me and my own. now all that was left was waiting for when it would be better and […]
Month: May 2021
to be or exist
be when everything that interested or entertained you bounced back into the existential wall where you have to decide – you or they … when you live with people who cause you problems, you are looking for answers sometimes through the blackness, sometimes through […]
will you resurrect me?
lately, I feel lonely and alone, though surrounded by people and sounds but I only feel emptiness. will you resurrect me when everything in me is a mad fire of flame and restless anticipation of the end? will you resurrect me when everything falls […]
feeling insecure
I want it all over, my non-security leads me to blackness and violence against myself and others. I need a space where I felt safe and welcome as my world loses grip and meaning. I understand that I am sick and sometimes I have […]
strange world (desire to escape)
my world is currently full of strange thoughts and strange desires. I began to fear myself and my actions towards other people again. now I feel like blackness is flooding me again, and for some time now I can do nothing with it. I […]
