wanderer travels (waiting for a birthday)

I would like to spend my birthday somewhere outside the boarding house because I really miss friends and the freedom that was once dear to me.
I hope that there will be no need to do nonsense or come to terms with the inevitable fate, and the authorities will allow us to go to another city

and today I learned that the quarantine is being extended until the end of the month, so my fears have come true again ….
I don’t know if there will be opportunities to get my birthday here, but apparently something will have to be invented so that I don’t feel alone and lonely.

I have been going crazy for a long time and no authority no matter how I feel and live, all this BS has not made sense for a long time, and there is only a desire to hurt everything and escape, in the true sense of the word, from the boarding house ….

I don’t feel good knowing that my “light” friend which I haven’t seen in a long time, words don’t come true and I will be left alone with my anxiety and sadness ….

but maybe, where-where is the hope that everything will change and I will be able to see them all, but the longer that hope goes away and the more and more trembling legs walk …..
there was little to wait, but also so much: – /