I finally overcome myself and the longest weekend since I start living in a boarding house …. it was hard and sometimes I thought that everything with that quarantine was done on purpose. sometimes it seemed like I could pack my backpack to escape […]
Category: rants and raves
There are three days left
Or rather, almost three days. And when you think everything is just a dream in which your destiny and hopes depended only on you. The mythical hammer struck well through my psyche and emotions and it was as if everything appeared like a mirror. […]
quarantine in my brain
Finally, it’s time to see if I can overcome myself. My inner wanderer is restless and wants to escape from the boarding house. I think a lot about it and see those months when we were quarantined and somehow I was able to stay […]
tin ice, prison and high hopes
I feel like in prison, though perhaps, I had high hopes that I would finally be able to move from the point of death. I don’t know why but more and more I go crazy that everything is unclear neither how nor then. Although […]
[short] Today
Today begins the first day of freedom from quarantine …. I don’t know what the conditions will be like at home, but I can already recover and still believe that my dream will come true …. in the morning we will know everything ……
banhammer, quarantine and my life – final chapter
Today, perhaps, is the last day we live in a quarantine situation. Today, I realized what delicious and precious freedom, a freedom I no longer want to lose. Finally, the stories of the rolling roof are over, and the desire to make the “leap […]
I DON’T KNOW
I reconciled and completely lost myself. not the time when I could not sleep and be responsible for myself. 13 years ago it didn’t matter to me, day or night I was alive and resilient to everything now otherwise, I’m afraid to mix day […]
B1YXNIS.CF FINALLY READY
a long night awaits me today, but I have finally gathered myself all in one place… .. later all my work is finished. I also fixed the domains that didn’t work or didn’t need me, now everything in its place, and as much as […]
Silence before the storm
last night was scary and beautiful …. storm and thunderstorm enchanted me with its power …. I sat in my office and watched through the window and asked what fate wanted to tell me. just felt so small and the music in the headphones […]
stuck in a middle and creative block
my writing project stuck in a middle of creative block aka laziness….. sometimes I stare at the screen and no ideas coming through I have a lot of material on paper, but how it makes a systematic and readable for people to understand, maybe […]
little birthday & things that I’m looking for
I’m still frustrated, I’m almost crawling trough this lockdown but I’m still alive and this is good news for me… this Wednesday is my little love’s birthday and I’m looking for it… and I don’t know what gift I should buy or maybe make […]
still here, still alive
when the end draws near in the cities, we still locked down….. and again I’m still crazy and alone. I still alive and here, crawling or scrolling trough lockdown I still waiting to crash again, but now I don’t give up… I need to […]
when people try to listen
it’s nothing to brag about, but yesterday I feel like I’ve listened at last….. now, I feel better and stronger, then people help me overcome my darkness I respect people with understanding and silent voices, like Z. I respect her more and more because […]
some good news for the evening
now, I’m happy…. after a talk with the head of the medical department we make an agreement about medications. and after it, I don’t want to go to ward, but simply I waith a nurse shift and see how things go… the agreement is […]
