I would really like to see the people of the Living Library live and directly, but there is no way I can decide to ride for me or not …. the other thing without quarantine is that I have no money to travel and […]
Category: rants and raves
somewhere something
something has created my life that I can’t call my own, I feel like I can’t know and perceive either myself or my environment. the drop is that while in a boarding house I attract 90 percent of negative people, and the rest can […]
illness and sense of necessity (random logic)
I want to be needed by someone because then I feel more stable and calmer. you see, my illness needs to belong to someone. although now I feel more and more vulnerable because there is no purpose, no purpose for something because sometimes even […]
rodent
during my journey, I saw what now does not give me peace and peace of mind. it’s my dad who doesn’t get out of alcohol and it makes me sad. you see, he no matter what he is my blood and soul, I saw […]
today
today I decided to put myself in the hands of another person. today my girlfriend and I decided to try to live together. I am afraid of my disorder that she may suffer because I never wanted her to see me in my worst […]
stagnant moment
when I was isolated after my failed journey, I began to discover myself, began to capture frozen moments, and recognize who I am and what I am. today is a night full of thinking and everything that happened to me then has its meaning […]
AFTER QUARANTINE IN BOARDING HOUSE
I’m sorry I didn’t get the money for the trip, and I had to quarantine… .. but I lived alone and felt good enough to be alone. I had my own “magic box” and was not sad – movies, music, what more do I […]
organic hatred (then and now)
the first time I started to feel that feeling was the howling of my drunken father in pain and despair. then I realized I had to run away or I would kill my father. it was so strong that it was hard for me […]
today
today I realized that it all depends on me and my approach to life situations. today I realized that there will be forces that will resist your good mood and emotions ….. while living in the boarding house I started to feel organic hatred […]
otherwise, it will not
sleepless night again and the flow of thoughts distract me from the rhythm …. I realize every day that I am driven to despair by the simplest thing – the freedom that I cannot enjoy. I understand that the virus cis is still overclocking […]
is it worth it?
these walls oppress me and don’t give me peace, I need someone to free me from my lockdown which is still sitting in my brain …… I spoke to the medical staff today and realized that I would still need to be quarantined and […]
fear of falling asleep, fear of getting up and going …..
…. after a sense of victory or freedom comes sickness and frustration. I feel that way today and that lockdown is still sitting in my brain. maybe it’s from injecting drugs today, and I would still have to think about “drug drugs” and give […]
new start
the demons are coming back and I have a lot of work to do with myself, but I will not give up, I will not give up and I will not run again. I will not run away because I want to live MY […]
the first day of freedom
we finally overcame the quarantine and life got a little more interesting. but we still have some restrictions but we can already go out for a walk around the town but we have to be on the lookout for when and how much we […]
