after our last call, I realized we were out of the way. yes, it seems to you that I don’t understand anything, but now I understand a lot more than it seems to you. I know my past has been full of wanderings and […]
Category: rants and raves
I still believe
in my present world, everything seems lost, closed and abandoned, lonely, and alone. looking forward to better times in a world where there is no hope …. but I still believe that this whole quarantine affair will not last long, you just have to […]
I will create
I will create for myself freedom that no one will take away from me I will create for myself a life that no one will influence and control except me. I will be the best I am, I will not ask for help if […]
to whom it will concern
I know my desires can and will hurt other people. I know this is unrealistic and if there is a problem in me then I am ready not to talk about it anymore. simply, this desire arose from being tired of being unheard and […]
scary and restless
in my mind anxious and scary, my girlfriend and her roommate are isolated because they had contact with a sick employee …. I even have a hard time thinking about the worst situation … but I have to give in to bad emotions as […]
sharing is caring
who doesn’t know I have a psychiatric diagnosis and have struggled with it for a long time …. many times in a psychiatric institution until I realized I wouldn’t get over it so easily …. I realized that my experience is the most valuable […]
I am grateful
although I have lost the road dust on my shoes, I am grateful to be able to wait for the rain without getting wet. however, I am grateful to be mentally stable now (sometimes) and can calmly wait to see what happens next. I […]
someday it will end
I just talked to my friend from Vilnius, but I feel a slight shock that the mystical hammer was introduced so quickly …… our area of existence was further reduced as we lost our inner courtyard with scaffolding and closed doors. everything that was […]
mystical hammer vr2
today my darkest fears and desires came true …. the mystical hammer mode was turned on again and I was the last one to get out to town. my fear of being left without the freedom of movement came true to the fullest and […]
desire and serenity
again I seem to be stuck in an alien reality. I feel lost and lost my lives which are now only on the computer screen and in the old, cold faces of people it hurts, I feel my body falling again, and I barely […]
BETWEEN HERE AND WHEN (TWO LIVES)
I live in a double world, between living in a boarding house and my past. My life in a boarding house is not always the way I want and can. Life here is more a loss than a discovery…. My communication is limited to […]
I’m listening
I listen to music weird and in my ears, just one question when my dream will end. the music doesn’t leave me weird because I’m still looking for an answer to whether it’s worth living or maybe giving up and not waiting for someone […]
strange feeling (match)
I can’t live without problems, sometimes it seems like other characters are trying your patience, but or really kick is that sometimes I need to spill on something because sometimes I can’t control my emotions flow. sometimes it seems like I’m burning with my […]
commitment or health
lately, I’ve barely kept myself from using violence against some characters who seem to be trying my patience. a few days ago I had a conversation with a nurse on duty about my health and voluntary treatment. but there is another side to this […]
