someone said you are the blacksmith of your life but now I want my little dreams to come true and that I can finally start all over again ….. I believe in vaccinations, and this is maybe the only way to get things moving […]
Category: rants and raves
anger and enemies that are absent
you remember when you told the story of a “broken musician” … today I realized that we are not on our way together, and sometimes in search of enemies where there are none, he leads me to blackness … today I realized that we […]
about my illness [2013]
It’s hard for me to talk about my illness because a lot of memories flood me in but I will try. The first feeling is you don’t know what’s going on with you. Just, you are aiming, you are wandering because someone in your […]
I’M TIRED
I’m tired of wandering this 70-step “can” and waiting for some miracle to help me deal with emotions and mental state. I get tired of seeking help when everything that is and is expensive, disappears under the virus or tactlessness or unwillingness to work. […]
let it be without a name
I wanted to write this article a long time ago, I thought long ago about my illness and the life situation I got into ….. I know there are a lot of people in this world who would envy me the place I am […]
forgiveness and understanding
in the last few days, I have realized many things about my relationship and the life I am in now. I realized that people needed to be given space, so my mom decided not to call her anymore and not communicate with her if […]
pit
I feel like I’m falling more and more into the pit with that virus thing. I feel like I need stronger help than I am getting now even thinking about the institution. but everything is already crowded, I read that already 95 percent of […]
people nearby and somewhere
when you think about it, people dear and annoying surround me. sometimes those dear people are too dear to me to run them, though sometimes I feel misunderstood by them. but there are others who try your patience and emotional state sometimes bypassing them, […]
Quotation marks
now I have my life put in quotes, I don’t witness but I’m a little scared …… scared of a zoom conference with young people who may not understand my quotes world. my world can be quoted now and then again because I am […]
tomorrow
tomorrow is the day when the further closure issue will be decided. although there is a little hope, everything can be the other way around. though there is hope she has small crooked legs, but she is. now I realize that everything is for […]
I understood today
today at least partial sleeplessness awaits again …. sometimes it seems that everything I touch becomes part of my story-experience. today I realized that all this closing chunk had to happen to know how strong I was, how much fear and hatred I had […]
closure and other matters
I’ve never had a hard time like this week when I’m closed in a 70 step box …. the roof goes up when you don’t know how and when things will end. lately, I have had many dreams in which I pour frustration on […]
calmer
it’s the third day I’m locked up and now I’m not looking for the dead because I know the whole world is suffering. when the relatively first days were the cruelest, but I finally got rid of ….. I have to suffer because everyone […]
one or (not) one
you know if you could get out of the experiment after the weekend. but the more I would like to go back to my cave, but at the same time I would like to invite someone to stay with me I am now in […]
