I started analyzing my health deteriorations and realized that I was hurt by being with other, four or three people. you see, I was never part of a gang, and I lived a life of solitude and alone. realistically, I needed to find or […]
Category: rants and raves
lost in translation
neither here nor there, as if insane, plunging into the unknown, and everything I leave here is precious and my own. sometimes I want to escape from stupid and stupid situations that sometimes don’t bypass me. and everything that has been here will remain […]
I know because I want to
there will be no way back and I need it like air. dive into unknown waters, but it might be a way to hack the system and move towards your life I get tired of living with those I have a problem with, everything […]
the end of a sad day and waiting for when
yesterday I celebrated my birthday and it was one of those sad days but today I realized that I have friends here who are dear to me and my own. now all that was left was waiting for when it would be better and […]
to be or exist
be when everything that interested or entertained you bounced back into the existential wall where you have to decide – you or they … when you live with people who cause you problems, you are looking for answers sometimes through the blackness, sometimes through […]
will you resurrect me?
lately, I feel lonely and alone, though surrounded by people and sounds but I only feel emptiness. will you resurrect me when everything in me is a mad fire of flame and restless anticipation of the end? will you resurrect me when everything falls […]
feeling insecure
I want it all over, my non-security leads me to blackness and violence against myself and others. I need a space where I felt safe and welcome as my world loses grip and meaning. I understand that I am sick and sometimes I have […]
strange world (desire to escape)
my world is currently full of strange thoughts and strange desires. I began to fear myself and my actions towards other people again. now I feel like blackness is flooding me again, and for some time now I can do nothing with it. I […]
wanderer travels (waiting for a birthday)
I would like to spend my birthday somewhere outside the boarding house because I really miss friends and the freedom that was once dear to me.I hope that there will be no need to do nonsense or come to terms with the inevitable fate, […]
jealous, hate, change
when you think about it, only the ashes of glory are left of my life. that I wish I would not change my future so easily and all that was left were the memories of travel and nomads. somehow with one person from my […]
emptiness
today I feel empty and don’t understand what’s going on with me. I know my plan is good and realistic but how much it will cost me effort and patience. I know I have to leave everything here, all the comfort, respect, and discounts […]
I’ve been here a long time …..
I have been here a long time ago, I have been writing here for a long time. just, lately, I’ve been trying to focus on the things that matter to me, the projects, the video channel, and the creation of poetry. now a lot […]
the two most difficult days
Easter is probably the hardest holiday of my life because I am left alone with my demons and a life that leads nowhere. sometimes it seems that not only the holidays but the whole life is too far too slow and no one. in […]
time to be
finally, it’s time to be yourself, not afraid to make mistakes, not afraid to get sick, and not afraid to seek help. it’s time to be mistaken and admit your mistakes, it’s time to be stupid, smart, and finally, it’s time to be back. […]
