i feel like I’m a wanderer in my mind and sometimes in life i have to test myself. though nothing is remembered, only the crumbs of the music and the faces of the people float out of the corners of the mind.thoughts and memories […]
Category: rants and raves
my world is different (remember)
sometimes it seems like I am living a normal healthy life, but sometimes I am reminded that this is not true.I am always reminded no matter how much power I have anyway my life is different. last week’s seizure and current tension still reminds […]
not random people
sometimes it seems that I have contributed nonsense myself, but you meet people who are not accidental sources of inspiration in your life …. I remember almost nothing from my first day, but I remember the student’s insights and that feeling I haven’t felt […]
how
how hard it is to look at yourself with your own eyes.today, when freedom is so close, it’s hard to comprehend what and how you survived.trying to resurrect your life and rise to an old (new) reality. you will need to learn to travel, […]
i can’t be what i am not
i can’t be what i am notand who I am is a lost self-seeking being.still looking for answers to life questions about blackness and a healthy world. i can’t be what others consider me to be.I do not see my world in the eyes […]
cradle diggers, music that is (not) soothing
today i launched my new cradle digger series which will still feature places and digital travel.this time i will try to broadcast a twitch if the forces and emotions bring me to new life. today was a day full of sleep only in the […]
Got it
they will remind me, everywhere and always, what was and what will be… .. but for me with my family not on the way… .. I want to get back into the world of vagrants from which I was imprisoned in Veisiejai, I want […]
dad’s funeral and other things
it’s hard for me to tame the feeling that my dad isn’t there, it’s hard to realize that the person is buried and the feelings flooded me just at the best time …a lot of everything, the simple things that bind us now are […]
monsters around me
I recently went to Klaipeda and met my sister, I accidentally asked about my father’s health, and I found out that he had absolutely nothing ….and then dreams came back, dreams of me beating him, and I feel blood on my hands that really […]
animal in a glass box
i slept all day today and i don’t know what’s going on with me.i feel like my whole body is sagging and nothing matters just like an animal in a glass box. nothing matters anymore, sleep or coffee again, today I feel bad,
life on the border
sometimes no one seems to need my life, not even myself. I live on a very fragile line, although everyone tells me it’s up to me and I’ll get over it but my world burns, I don’t know how to overcome everything, because other […]
somehow I thought I wouldn’t come back ….
somehow lately I’ve been lucky enough to get back old projects, even this one, I already thought everything was lost, but the night tribe has recovered and is moving on.now i have more work and jobs, everything seems to be my own through the […]
self-determination
today I realized that I needed help that they would not give me. I decided to go to a psychiatric hospital and try to recover and myself and my strength there… I understand that it will not be easy to ask for a referral […]
long-forgotten days (waiting for a change)
someone wants to stop me from healing and recovery. something reminds me again and again of how unpredictable and stupid I am. stupid that I try to live my life no matter where it takes me. I try to discover my way of life […]
