why am I forced to be a positive character when I can’t get out of someone’s head? that woman who forced me to use violence uses my last name as a curse word. and it drives me crazy…sometimes I want to hit her again […]
Category: writings library (eng/lt)
not random people
sometimes it seems that I have contributed nonsense myself, but you meet people who are not accidental sources of inspiration in your life …. I remember almost nothing from my first day, but I remember the student’s insights and that feeling I haven’t felt […]
self-determination
today I realized that I needed help that they would not give me. I decided to go to a psychiatric hospital and try to recover and myself and my strength there… I understand that it will not be easy to ask for a referral […]
long-forgotten days (waiting for a change)
someone wants to stop me from healing and recovery. something reminds me again and again of how unpredictable and stupid I am. stupid that I try to live my life no matter where it takes me. I try to discover my way of life […]
morning
morning which is not expected to dawn the day is not for me and not my words stuck in a corner of thought life alien black and white a closed wanderer is looking for a way out books closed there is no hope peace […]
you’re leaving
neither good nor goodbye you go out into the distance and did not wait like I have not been near near you promise to come back just go out you promise to come back you go you leave a colicky imprint in the mind […]
freedom (second day)
somehow I am not left with the slight feeling of paranoia that things will end soon. today I am already used to feeling and feeling good enough, physically, emotionally and spiritually …. now I am waiting for a meeting with the 15min.lt filming team. […]
THE PROMISE OF A GOOD LIFE
the promise of a good life is locked behind the gates I don’t know how to stop and not see all that was left was fools and chatter want to fall asleep and wake up when it’s all over I want to experience the […]
I am grateful
although I have lost the road dust on my shoes, I am grateful to be able to wait for the rain without getting wet. however, I am grateful to be mentally stable now (sometimes) and can calmly wait to see what happens next. I […]
What do you think of Christ? Whose Son is He?
The Bible Answer: God appeared in the flesh, justified Himself in the Spirit, showed Himself to the Angels, preached to the nations, accepted by faith in the world, was exalted in glory. (1 Timothy 3:16) This is the true God and eternal life (1 […]
stagnant moment
when I was isolated after my failed journey, I began to discover myself, began to capture frozen moments, and recognize who I am and what I am. today is a night full of thinking and everything that happened to me then has its meaning […]
Rock out (I overcame)
I finally overcome myself and the longest weekend since I start living in a boarding house …. it was hard and sometimes I thought that everything with that quarantine was done on purpose. sometimes it seemed like I could pack my backpack to escape […]
the desire for freedom
created to love others the music strangely sounds louder and louder freedom here and somewhere far away all surrounded by dark blacks I got stuck somewhere on the edge of the world life stopped and nothing was left just a silent wait for the […]
when the music sounds weird
when the music sounds weird the old world gives no peace and a new one somewhere far away the mind and thoughts run away anxiety visits me again I am alone I will remain death will show who is right love will clear the […]
