that world will no longer be what it was, because it is full of unhealthy people, and I need a life that will build me up sometimes it seems that the world in which I live curses me, it is difficult for me to […]
Category: rants and raves
wanderlust and living now
I want to be on the road again, I want to rest from the boarding house and feel like a person again… next weekend, apparently, if the authorities are in a good mood. today, an Advent poetry reading is planned, but I have almost […]
Tuesday night memories
somewhere, there is strange music, coffee, and a 12-hour broadcast, and I don’t know if I will fall asleep somewhere on the way. but I still can and want to… in my virtual world, it has already become a habit, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and […]
I disappeared
sometimes I want to disappear from this world because I think she won’t read my letter…I realized that she doesn’t have or doesn’t want to understand another person’s (my) emotions and an explanation of what’s happening to me and what my world is. I […]
strange night music
the strange music haunts me again, and I would give anything for a drop of peace.no, I want to dive into the night broadcasts again, even though I know it’s not good for my health. but yesterday’s DCD got me back into the rhythm […]
it’s hard
it’s hard to open up because you’re afraid of getting burned. After all, you’re afraid of being misunderstood, but the world is made up of good people.today, the broadcasts that transport me, it is difficult for me to accept other strangers in my life, […]
anniversary
finally, the day I didn’t wait for has come, my “anniversary” at the boarding house…..somehow, everything started to bother me, everything started to become boring and alien to me.the town turned into an object of pointless walks, I realized that I was not expected […]
#sleeplessnights
today is another sleepless night….. sometimes it seems like it will never end. music and poems, I understand that I have and want to sleep, but the full moon drives me to despair. all I do is smoke and drink coffee… it’s not for […]
DCD and being part of something big
today again, after a while I was at DCD (Dance Commander Disco) and I remembered the old days of the pandemic again when it used to save me from going crazy. this time, I felt accepted and understood again, no matter who I am, […]
why
why am I forced to be a positive character when I can’t get out of someone’s head? that woman who forced me to use violence uses my last name as a curse word. and it drives me crazy…sometimes I want to hit her again […]
alive and kicking
I have no choice but to pay the price I deserve. although I reconciled with that woman, I don’t feel guilty as much as I should.I know, I used too much force and could have gotten away, but two patients collided here and now […]
refugee, foster home, and consequences
I know I earned it and I will have to pay the price, but I proved to them what a fool I am, but I proved to myself that I can be pissed off until the ground grabs. I know that woman won, and […]
caring
today I came to the conclusion that I will never calm down because I was isolated. isolated because he’s afraid, and I partly understand why, but it’s hard… today I understand that I am no longer destined to live the life I lived before […]
my life (here and there)
my life will never be calm and normal.I have a defect that is my curse and my blessing, that defect will not give me peace no matter how much I fight it. sometimes it seems that my life is full of imaginary enemies that […]
