sometimes no one seems to need my life, not even myself. I live on a very fragile line, although everyone tells me it’s up to me and I’ll get over it but my world burns, I don’t know how to overcome everything, because other […]
Tag: mental health
reloading and writing and other important things
it’s very hard for me to report that until the new year, I’m temporarily leaving the podcast, for things that matter to me. I live in a rather difficult time, my father’s cancer, my mother’s hysteria, my new boarding house, my writing, and publishing […]
self-determination
today I realized that I needed help that they would not give me. I decided to go to a psychiatric hospital and try to recover and myself and my strength there… I understand that it will not be easy to ask for a referral […]
long-forgotten days (waiting for a change)
someone wants to stop me from healing and recovery. something reminds me again and again of how unpredictable and stupid I am. stupid that I try to live my life no matter where it takes me. I try to discover my way of life […]
now or never
I started analyzing my health deteriorations and realized that I was hurt by being with other, four or three people. you see, I was never part of a gang, and I lived a life of solitude and alone. realistically, I needed to find or […]
test
I don’t know where or when but everything crumbles in my little world. it’s hard to understand and forgive myself because I’m trying to deceive myself and escape from a reality I’ve been stuck in for some time. I feel cheated, I try to […]
to be or exist
be when everything that interested or entertained you bounced back into the existential wall where you have to decide – you or they … when you live with people who cause you problems, you are looking for answers sometimes through the blackness, sometimes through […]
will you resurrect me?
lately, I feel lonely and alone, though surrounded by people and sounds but I only feel emptiness. will you resurrect me when everything in me is a mad fire of flame and restless anticipation of the end? will you resurrect me when everything falls […]
feeling insecure
I want it all over, my non-security leads me to blackness and violence against myself and others. I need a space where I felt safe and welcome as my world loses grip and meaning. I understand that I am sick and sometimes I have […]
strange world (desire to escape)
my world is currently full of strange thoughts and strange desires. I began to fear myself and my actions towards other people again. now I feel like blackness is flooding me again, and for some time now I can do nothing with it. I […]
the one who makes the “waves”
I’ve been going crazy lately, and everything puts me under a black wave. today I realized that I no longer want to be where I am now, both physically and spiritually, and emotionally. today I realized that it is not in vain that I […]
I can’t or don’t want to
For 4 months I am locked in my inner shell, in a corridor where there is no peace and rest, sometimes it seems that everything is again just a dream that has lasted ….. I can no longer suffer from those closed doors and […]
destruction and the desire to live
again, it all starts at the beginning, sometimes it seems that all this nonsense will never end. sometimes it seems like I’m going crazy because there’s little left until freedom (?) and the unrest overwhelms me again. I don’t seek attention, but it looks […]
zoom on mental health
yesterday I attended a zoom meeting on mental health. it was an interesting conversation to hear other people’s stories, even though I know some of them from previous Human Library events and happenings. I have no academic knowledge of psychiatry and mental health, I […]
