I want to be on the road again, I want to rest from the boarding house and feel like a person again… next weekend, apparently, if the authorities are in a good mood. today, an Advent poetry reading is planned, but I have almost […]
Tag: mental health
I disappeared
sometimes I want to disappear from this world because I think she won’t read my letter…I realized that she doesn’t have or doesn’t want to understand another person’s (my) emotions and an explanation of what’s happening to me and what my world is. I […]
am I here or there
today I realized that my current life is further than far and that those who can help me have disappointed me. maybe it’s my own fault, but I’ve been feeling like I don’t belong in this space for a long time. I know it’s […]
why
why am I forced to be a positive character when I can’t get out of someone’s head? that woman who forced me to use violence uses my last name as a curse word. and it drives me crazy…sometimes I want to hit her again […]
alive and kicking
I have no choice but to pay the price I deserve. although I reconciled with that woman, I don’t feel guilty as much as I should.I know, I used too much force and could have gotten away, but two patients collided here and now […]
refugee, foster home, and consequences
I know I earned it and I will have to pay the price, but I proved to them what a fool I am, but I proved to myself that I can be pissed off until the ground grabs. I know that woman won, and […]
caring
today I came to the conclusion that I will never calm down because I was isolated. isolated because he’s afraid, and I partly understand why, but it’s hard… today I understand that I am no longer destined to live the life I lived before […]
my life (here and there)
my life will never be calm and normal.I have a defect that is my curse and my blessing, that defect will not give me peace no matter how much I fight it. sometimes it seems that my life is full of imaginary enemies that […]
my world is different (remember)
sometimes it seems like I am living a normal healthy life, but sometimes I am reminded that this is not true.I am always reminded no matter how much power I have anyway my life is different. last week’s seizure and current tension still reminds […]
shelter and fate
sometimes it seems to me that I will not escape all this nonsense so easily. today I realized I was wrong about some of the people around me.fate, to live here when everything is bored and wants change and new reality. shelter, I will […]
i can’t be what i am not
i can’t be what i am notand who I am is a lost self-seeking being.still looking for answers to life questions about blackness and a healthy world. i can’t be what others consider me to be.I do not see my world in the eyes […]
Got it
they will remind me, everywhere and always, what was and what will be… .. but for me with my family not on the way… .. I want to get back into the world of vagrants from which I was imprisoned in Veisiejai, I want […]
dad’s funeral and other things
it’s hard for me to tame the feeling that my dad isn’t there, it’s hard to realize that the person is buried and the feelings flooded me just at the best time …a lot of everything, the simple things that bind us now are […]
monsters around me
I recently went to Klaipeda and met my sister, I accidentally asked about my father’s health, and I found out that he had absolutely nothing ….and then dreams came back, dreams of me beating him, and I feel blood on my hands that really […]
